I've been known to make many stupid decisions throughout my life, driven by the little crazy mind i have. Running marathons under pain killers, risk shattering my metatarsals, tearing my ITB, running 10 days before my IB exams are just a few examples of my stupidity. Luckily for me none of those stupid mistakes turned out to be real mistakes, cos nothing bad actually happened. Somehow in every stupid action, i'm always save and end up having lost nothing at the end.

However what i did yesterday... is the epitome of all my stupid mistakes. I risked it all, selfish, self centered desires over trust and faith. I'm sorry...i should have left things the way they were.

Currently my life seems like a re-run of an old episode from my life. Things happening all over again, and I'm making the same mistakes all over again. It seems like i'm running in circles round the same track. Everything that seems perfect and is going perfectly will screw up if given the chance. Realised that perfectly awesome things aren't just perfectly awesome in my eyes. Many ppl consider running a fun sport, soccer a religion... but not many thought supper was perfectly awesome. Why the sudden change?

It's obvious eating supper is more awesome than anything else. It takes my breath away so easily, something even running for hours can't do. Especially when i eat waffles for supper, they get me higher than any post run high, any manutd victory. Gah guess i'll have to forgo supper from now on... it'll be tough but they're always other alternatives, though not as effective.

Recently i got a parting gift from the christians in my class, and there were sweet little notes and letters in them. Many of them said they admire my determination and ability to persevere through my Ultramarathons. Haha. Guys i just want to let you guys know, i think an ultramarathon is way easier than this Ubermarathon that we're all going through.

Halfway through my IB exams...
Chem could have gone slightly better... but i'm not complaining, it went superbly well.
Math was horrendous... it's like sitting through a nightmare.
Econs paper 1 was pretty awesome, due to the fact that Ms Ho Sern Ling went through that question during her consultation.

It feels like i'm metres away from the finish line, but i can't seem to get the same kinda adrenaline rush i get when i approach the last few kms in my ultramarathons. lol.

Everyone is watching, everyone is waiting.
Everywhere we look now, all there is is hating.
We just have no tolerance, we don't compromise.
All we know is what this objects in our own damn eyes.
Caring for each other, just does not exist.
All we wanna do is solve our problems with our fists.

So let's change this, rearange this.
Don't contribute, try to change it.
Be forgiving, to all living.
Because life's to short to hold a grudge for all time.
Please just try...

Everyone is watching, everyone is waiting.
No one's even hopeful, everyone's so jaded.
Good times never come and bad times always seem to last.
And everything's so screwed up,
Cause we live our lives too fast.

Well we are all familiar with this equation...( IF YOU'RE NOT, BETTER STUDY CHEM!). This is the equation we usually use to calculate the activation energy, or the minimum amount of energy required to get a reaction going. Without this energy the reaction will not occur, and basically nothing happens, two molecules just stay the way they are. No benefit. No loss.

Well for a GOOD REACTION to occur and LAST both the particles have to collide:
1) with the right orientation
2) with the right amounts of energy to overcome the activation energy

Well if these conditions aren't there... if the two molecules ain't colliding in the right orientation, or if they aren't colliding with the right amounts of energy... then one should just forget about the reaction and move on to other molecules. Well there's always external factors which maybe altered to try get the reaction going, like increasing the temperature. However it is very important to note, it takes alot of energy to maintain the optimum temperature. Furthermore the presence of other molecules around make it even harder for a proper collision and then for two molecules to remain binded for long.

P.s Most importantly bimolecular collisions are preferred over unimolecular! And termolecular is totally out of the question! LOLS.